life's greatest calling

I don’t know why
God put this on my heart,
the weight of it is crushing.
fractures fractal and fracture again,
I collapse into the crevices.
only to awake still wondering
down the same lane, toward the same sign,
that never seems to get any closer.
I want to know why, I question the truth,
and each time I find the same answer;
landing gently, kindly, tenderly:
love loves for its own sake.
God put himself upon my heart
and in his grace, I saw your face,
the weight of which is crushing.
fractures fractal and fracture again,
I collapse into the crevices.
and yet still I awake
to pursue my life’s greatest calling.